i would like to think of my life as a series of moving stills

lactobacillius and streptococus and LIVE cultured goodness

Mon, 04 Jan 2010 13:42:19 GMT

just had a full dollop of creamy home-made yoghurt, made with full cream milk(YUM YUM). the consistency is really good(damn viscous). and eating it fills up this seemingly repressed childhood desire of eating white pasty glue(or is it only blue-eyed Caucasian kids that get this cravings)

"i'm sorry"

Sat, 26 Dec 2009 12:47:58 GMT

there are two type of apologies to offer. one that is to genuinely express regretfully your previous actions which has hurt the person and given the situation again, would with a clearer mind avoid the same mistake. the other is to absolve yourself from guilt from hurting the other party and believe that you have done a righteous thing by apologizing and in the bliss of this righteous act, believe that you have written off the previous wrongs inflicted.

book plug: Spent.

Thu, 17 Dec 2009 06:20:42 GMT

brilliant psychology book which does the explanation of consumer behavior right in your face.

Sat, 21 Nov 2009 05:53:09 GMT

two days ago, i saw a nice looking military cap from d&g. i wanted to get it but it was only on sale the next day. i went back home thinking about why i really wanted the cap. was it the luring marketing, their glossy campaign, or was it that immediate recognizable initials of dark bold fontwork that represents the sexed-up luxurious life that will be yours upon this purchase. then again i thought it stupid to buy a cap which has only the apparent effect of padding up the pockets of club21 owners and not the above mentioned white-washing of intangible promise of dreams purchasing the cap. do i need to live a concocted life of marketers misguiding me, or can i come across strongly on my intrinsic values instead. somebody impart me these lessons please?
I'm a walking conundrum. Can you imagine carrying the weight of these arguments in your mind all the time!

self worth self worth self worth!

Wed, 18 Nov 2009 13:36:57 GMT

insecure :/

I'm all for unions clamouring for workers' rights....but....

Mon, 09 Nov 2009 05:12:49 GMT

Dave Ward, Deputy General Secretary CWU on why postal workers have voted to strike

Royal Mail postal workers have voted to take strike action over job security and working conditions.

They voted three to one in favour of action, with 61,623 out of a total of 80,830 workers who voted saying they wanted to strike.

But the Royal Mail said 60% of the total number of postal workers working in the UK did not vote to strike.

The company and unions have been unable to resolve differences on how best to modernise the postal service.

ANALYSIS

By Martin Shankleman, BBC employment correspondent

The outcome may not have been in doubt, but the size of the majority in favour of action is certainly a surprise.

Three quarters of union members polled endorsed the union's call for a national stoppage - much higher than expected - at a stroke undermining the Royal Mail's suggestion that staff disaffection with the company was restricted to a few hotspots around the country.

It is also significant that the government, which owns the business, has refused to intervene, despite fresh pleas today from the CWU leader Billy Hayes.

But given his union's role in destroying Labour's plan to part-privatise Royal Mail in the summer, it's hardly surprising that his union has few, if any, friends left in Whitehall.

Who else can deliver my letters?

Q&A: Royal Mail dispute

Send us your comments

The Royal Mail "condemned" the plan to strike as "deplorable and irresponsible", saying it would drive away customers and undermine confidence in the postal service.

It said 121,000 members were balloted, but there are a further 20,000 postal workers who are not members of the union.

Optimism?

However, Paul Tolhurst, operations director at Royal Mail, said he was hopeful of making headway with the company.

"We have been talking to the CWU for around the last six months... but based on my experience of those talks last week, we are slowly moving forwards, so I have some optimism," he told the BBC.

And despite the yes vote, Dave Ward, deputy general secretary of the CWU, said he hoped to avoid a strike.

"We know that we've got difficult challenges ahead, we're ready to meet those challenges and we want to do that through working with the company, and we want to do that before a national strike becomes a reality," he said.

But although both sides seem to be making optimistic noises, the BBC's business editor Robert Peston questioned the basis of that optimism.

The range of issues that the workforce seems to be dissatisfied with makes it difficult to know what management could offer to resolve the dispute, he said.

"I am almost reminded of the Cold War when the Russians and the Americans didn't speak the same language," he added.

and I was just wondering why wasn't my November issue of Wallpaper* in my letterbox yet.

mutually exclusive, really?

Sun, 08 Nov 2009 06:17:08 GMT

i wish i could dissect my rationalizing process, that way i'll know why am i so difficult to please.

what your music taste says about you

Mon, 02 Nov 2009 12:56:47 GMT

you know how different genres take their names from? it usually gives a sense into the history of why it came about or where it came about from. the anthropology is revealed by referring to its intended demographic, its origin, its societal impact, or maybe more starkly, a forthright description of its music style.

An example of a genre that is termed after its intended demographic is adult contemporary. So was wondering what do music composers have in mind when composing for this genre.

The genre gives you a outlet to soothe. To sooth whatever complexities and complicated situations, feelings and frustration you bump into in this world. The songs promise not to further complicate your life, to take your mind off, unplug, lifts your spirits and go somewhere new with the placating vocals of levity. It stares knowingly at the insanity of it all and tempt you to take a step back and look at the bigger picture of everything and relinquish you of any attempt at control of such a illogical world.

point of this entry? to point out that i've a lot more adult contemporary songs in my itunes now than ever. :/

breaking news!

Fri, 16 Oct 2009 10:37:43 GMT

MUSSOLINI WAS A BRITISH SPY!

in all shameful glory

Mon, 05 Oct 2009 14:04:38 GMT

I hate it that whenever my mum gives me that golden piece of wisdom, it always slips past the grasp of my memory, letting my ego tell me, "i know better"

right now, to my ego: "be damned, shut up, my mum knows better"

When you pay to make yourself important

Fri, 25 Sep 2009 08:52:23 GMT

The plethora of parties- F1 related - in the print/online media this week has been both exciting and nauseating.The variety of events brings excitement, the prices, repulse. Almost every event is offering astronomical prices($1025/pax!! for an area to chill,drink,BE among F1drivers) for you to revel in its VIP plush area specially cordoned off for yourself and other paying party-goer like YOU with the confining red velvet rope. Since when you could pay to be 'connected'? This business practice of party organisers distorts the natural social networking of people in the circle mingling with people of the same ilk(whether by industry, community or relationships) by letting you pay to mingle with people you supposedly want to get to rub shoulders with but don't get a chance to. Ego-boosting by having partied with celebrities or sport stars is prompting for sympathies no? okay this post sounds too critical and finger-pointing but i prefer parties to be more about the music than the people attending. Parties are suppose to bring people together for the love of music and not bring exclusion to a new high based on vulgar measurement of whether you can pay enough a premium to have a great party night.

Sat, 12 Sep 2009 03:14:49 GMT

I finally realized what has been making me unhappy all this while, and I'm going to fix it.

self awareness books something i always avoided, prompted by cynicsm

Mon, 07 Sep 2009 14:19:01 GMT

today i happen to chance upon a book left on a counter top by its owner who apparently had other more important issues to attend to, to its perusal of its contents. and by fortuity, i came across it and decided to have a browse through of its content. the first few skims had me decided it was psycho-analysis in subject(with references to freud and the like) then as i plough on in detail, i decided it was one of those personality book which was a derivative of those commonplace online web surveys that categorize you into the many different persona. maybe it was because i have long steered clear of these surveys(too self indulgent, too generic, too eager to please with its utopian results) but this book seems pretty convincing to me in its theory that: personality is actually formed from personality traits which is previously formed by desires in actuality. the book gives a common man explanation, that gives me answers(not unlike yahoo! answers) to my unexplainable temperament and behavior. so in process of reading the book, at times feel i'm holding a self-help book.

of course, the book aforementioned, The Normal Personality by Steven Reiss, published by cambridge university press

Sat, 05 Sep 2009 13:27:29 GMT

no more nights,

it is really time for separation

the future is pretty fogged up

but i have to see you in a few years time,

amidst the settled dew.

marketing is such a vile tool

Sun, 05 Jul 2009 05:43:27 GMT

i like the way aa sells linen sheets

picture for reference:

need hot & attractive companion to go to a party, please quote price.

Wed, 03 Jun 2009 14:04:39 GMT

I never knew why is there an enthusiastic supply of social escorts, till now.

Sun, 17 May 2009 01:09:35 GMT

YESTERDAY was quite an adventure. let me illustrate in a twitter format!

[1100] got home, hurriedly grabbed my backpack and dumped my passport, clothes, towel in it
[1120] left for changi jetty in a cab
[1200] got a bum boat which leaves for sungei rengit
[1240]reached johor without any ringgit in our pockets
[1300] reached sungei rengit, paid cab driver in sing
[1315] fantastic lunch of zhi char
[1345] wanted to go desaru(beach facing the south china sea) but found cab fare(45rm) too expensive. asked a local whether he could send us there, saying we'll pay for his petrol(30rm)
[1400] off to desaru in the shabby car!
[1415] on the journey, local told us the location of a prostitution ring in the middle of the woods
[1410]reached desaru, SORELY disappointed with the resorts facillities from the perspective of a free loader. every resort there was totally stuck in the 80s. and the beach can only be accessed from the resort, meaning the stretch of sand is fuckin' privatised!
[1430] acted like resort guests for every resort down the beach
[1800] got bored, missed singapore wanted to go back
[1815] asked reception to get a cab for us, waited impatiently cause 1900 last ferry!
[1825]a red proton civilian car came. drove at 120km/hr to the ferry terminal
[1845] bought ferry tickets and got the hell out of JB!!!

i think i love korean girls

Sun, 10 May 2009 05:40:17 GMT

i vote this song best song of 2008!

new discover: Saint Albray

Mon, 27 Apr 2009 13:21:01 GMT

taste similar to camembert but creamier and chewier(?) too salty for my liking though.

let me ask, do you have things that you did a few days ago at the back of your head? is it peculiar to me that i don't remember what happened once it has passed? why am i afraid of the past so much? why am i afraid of permanence? why do i keep living in the present and future? why is my happiness so short-lived?

and i haven't bought book to bury my head into for a long time. please kino, we need you to give discounts as ferociously as your american counterpart. where's the coupon love!

Sun, 12 Apr 2009 13:22:19 GMT

while people were grabbing the money and hastily changing the name for bank deposits, i was rummaging for artifacts, items that would give me a peek into what my late grandma was like decades ago, looking for photos to see how relationships were back in the distant past, keeping chains that she wore which i vividly saw in my view, what does that make of me? foolish and misguided in some opinions.

today something got me hitting the walls and doors, kicking the floors and metal sheets, something i haven't felt but getting it frequently this few weeks. i felt a lack of control over what i want, felt powerless because this issue wasn't within my control but i desired for it to change. because this doesnt affect my future but changes her's.

yesterday i wanted to get a book which talks about gentrification. it was a pictorial book which tracks the social changes as 6 cities urbanize, about the lack of public spaces and losing of power of the streets and people. 2 days ago i watch battle in seattle, felt alot for the issues in the movie, saw the news of the stalling of asean summit because of protesters, saw the front page of the times reporting on anarchist protest ahead of g20.

I'm heading off for camp now, till then i'll wallow in my pessimism.

interesting comment of YYY's new album

Mon, 30 Mar 2009 11:12:24 GMT

"My only problem is I never went to the YYYs for ‘balance and cohesion.’ I went to them for chaos and danger. In fact, of all the bands that came out in the early aughts, they were the one that had a real sense of danger. The Stripes felt manufactured, the Hives were just wind up toys, the Strokes were too metric; it was the YYYs that I thought would be our closest contender for a Runaways or a Stooges. When I saw the cover for this album, I downloaded it immediately from iTunes, thinking they had finally returned to the gritty edge of their early ep. When I played it, all there was was a decent dance single and some midtempo dross. This is a good album, just not the scorcher I was hoping for."

losing it..

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 13:22:43 GMT

last week was a life-changing week, where i experience first hand the loss of a loved one and the entire proceedings highlighted my key chess position in the hierarchy of the family. this weight and position of my significance in the family is both heartening and binding. it gives me a cause to love and yet it restricts me from acting irresponsibly and impedes my value of freedom. how i choose my path in life affects my close ones tremendously and how can i explain myself enough that there is a chance i'll be bohemian in lifestyle, that i have a growing disliking for society and i'm hanging by a thread trying to keep myself in as a insider. with every book i complete, a step closer i take to being a dissent and this change in me is scary and enlightening at once. i think to myself whether i want to renounce this capitalist world, whether can i be happy without buying, this constantly gnaws at me as i shuffle among people in the malls.

yesterday i was at it again. i did what i enjoyed doing and growing to hate. i keep coming back to it, because of my lack of rootedness to anyone. because i take comfort in inpermanence, in sordidness, in anonymity. i was in control at first but the tables turn and now i am vulnerable to it. i need someone to bring me to light, i am feeling in need of the alpha and the omega, in need of forgiveness, in need of something all mighty.

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Sat, 21 Feb 2009 03:49:53 GMT

made clam chowder today yum!

documentary adapted from book

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 15:40:49 GMT

sometimes for life's problems, i turn to sociologists for solutions.

tradition 101 of cny: boomerang playtime!

Tue, 27 Jan 2009 12:26:49 GMT

finally decided to try the boomerang howard bought for me.

yeah go ahead and feel sorry for pimplepox girl.